Morality. Ayn Rand defines the word as –
defines a code of values to guide man’s choices and actions – the choices and actions that determine the course of his life.
There is male, there is female. There is one, there are many, there is none. There is pleasure, there is pain. There is earth, there is sky or water. You pick 2 things that the faculty of human mind has deemed antagonistic, inimical or simply just opposite. And if you have trouble coming to a conclusion that neither is right nor wrong, you have to start observing. Simply observe. Observe how you have both the male and female inside you. How your body is built around combining the power of both the energies; how each one of us is the living embodiment of Ardhnarishwar! We only ever forgot about them because our brains are now conditioned to run for logic (left brained) leaving creativity (right brained) by the wayside.
We were probably created by that one point sized source of energy that, probably in a dream or humor, decided to part into two, a moment in which it was unconscious or who knows conscious. It may have had no business dividing itself, but now that it had divided itself, everything that came later had to have 2 parts to every part of it (you see how I’m running towards logic here, leaving creativity by the wayside). I just want to say that we’re all built of two. A “two” that comes from one. And as everything is built of two, the universe gives you two of everything that are often polar opposite of each other. Yin and Yang, Black and White, 0 or 1 – it’s up to you to simply choose one. Nothing is wrong, nothing is right – it’s all a perception, a choice made in a situation presented to you cemented by your agreement to accept the inevitable result, which in itself is exposed to infinite possibilities. These choices that you make, make up your morality; a propensity to choose in a certain way given similar set of conditions in the future.
There you go, that’s morality for me – we’re all one, made up of infinite. I’ve always known that I’m different. Physically, mentally, emotionally, I am not the regular guy I seem to be on the outside. I’ve struggled to deal with people and mostly because I trust too easily and I am very emotional. It was hard finding truths about myself because I was always surrounded by people who never shared my priorities or philosophies. Yes, only now do I realize that I’ve always had philosophies. And only now am I able to shape them, mend their architecture to love myself more. The societal “responsible” tag has remained forever with me and it’s something I don’t wish to give up but now I place myself on priority too. I wish to give myself opportunities to love and fall but with grace and never having to hurt anyone which in most cases is, never inciting ill feelings inside another human heart. My work will only be limited to keeping a clean sheet between 2 hearts but being infinite with myself, never purging an emotion or action if it relieves me or keeps me in a zero unhindered state.
I am my truths and fallacies and so I am the living embodiment of my morality. I know there is a lot that I can change about me that’ll make my masters and God proud of me but somewhere I know they are already proud of who I am today and how far I have come.