Choices

Ever felt like being stretched from your hands and legs, spread eagled in the air, helpless, caught by the people whom you so despise but you once trusted with all your heart? I think I’m going through a period when I’m now so used to this feeling that it feels more like an exercise. Everyday, I’m stretched painfully in either direction, emotionally. I have no clue when I’ll break but tension is high and I feel it in my veins. This isn’t normal – the way I’m trying to live, castrated by the things I’ve so loved. Brainwash seems imminent!

Anyways, that’s about me. Regarding this stretching, have you ever noticed how there’s always a power struggle between the ones who tend to take the middle path and the ones who don’t. Let’s call the former as ‘M’ for middle path and ‘B’ for clearly biased.

M’s, I think, are closer to attaining spiritual freedom, for they tend to keep their heads still, and always try to weigh the outcome of either of the choices. These are the people, whose focus is set at equality, and that they must never hurt anyone with their choices. They are often more articulate than most. These people tend to use a proper combination of heart and brain to weigh their options. These are also the people who’ll stay confused for far longer than most and don’t tend to come to conclusions until their set criteria is met.

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The B’s though, tend to think more from their heart than their minds. They have a tendency to start building an opinion after they have elected for an option which makes them rather more prejudiced and prone to making mistakes. These are also the people, more hasty and unclear in their thinking. Their world revolves more around showing off than actual reasoning. These often have high egos which further prohibits clear thinking. They are also the people who tend to disturb the M’s more than anyone else. These people think, since they’ve made their choices early, they’ve got to have materialistic evidence to support their argument and this is where M’s come in.

B’s invite M’s to their side by telling them how lucrative and correct their side/argument is. B’s in this sense are manipulative as well. In short, B’s are often better equipped to take the world head on than the M’s. M’s hence find it even harder to make their choices. M’s are far more influenced than B’s who don’t leave a room for any further influence on their decisions than their own.

My friend narrated me the story of some man in American continent, who used to answer every question using just his right index finger. There were several attempts to figure out what exactly he meant by that index finger. Was it one, solitary? It was hard to find. Even when dying, the answer to the question about his index finger was… ‘an index finger’. Few years later, a very intelligent version of the finger arrived, in that, he always meant that “All is One”. That with experience we learn to take the middle road to happiness, in that the happiness of polarity in decisions becomes immaterial. That after a point in life, that one point, all your choices are correct. You have attained what’s called Spiritual Nirvana.

My argument, for which he had no answer was, is as follows –

What if the entire thing of that one focal point, is an alibi to escape the logics of the world and avoid all further scrutiny, an escape route? Viewing it from a different angle isn’t that one focal point also a side that we’ve taken. Don’t M’s become the B’s then? Aren’t we all scared again and running away? Is Spiritual Nirvana a prejudice?

For a person who makes his choices carefully and after a lot of thought, it’s so slippery, this world! For one single slip of thought and you will end up making the wrong choice, and for all M’s, it’s a huge setback. For B’s though, this situation/condition never materializes for they’ve already made their choice and are more often than not, ready to live with the repercussions.

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I’ve made my choice and I am the middle-man, M.

What are you? M or B.

Harda – A Seed is Sown

A trip back in time will definitely take me to a day in Harda. It’s a tiny town at the heart of Madhya Pradesh. Unnoticeable railway station, shabby outdoors, pathetic roads, and yet an amazingly calm and earthly demeanor that makes you feel at home.

I first met this place on a wet day. Me and my brother were to appear for an entrance test at our first convent school. It was tough – for English was never our forte. They kept talking to us in that foreign language all the while getting us to appear for tests in Mathematics, Science, and English. I don’t remember the marks I scored then, but the principal seemed pretty satisfied with however we had performed. I remember dad buying our books, notebooks, and our uniforms from their stationery shop. I remember the parking, the church, buildings under construction, ducks, birds, green color of the wet trees, incessant rain, and the hooting from the trains passing by the nearby railway station.

By the time, we completed the admission formalities, we got late and dad decided to buy us dinner from a nearby market. I remember us searching for food throughout the town in that rain. The rain, the rain, I just can’t get that rain out of my head. It just never drizzled. It poured all day so hard and with such ferocity, it forced shopkeepers to stay in and finding an eatery was hard. After much search though, we found a street side vendor selling CHAAT and GOLGAPPE (Pani Puri) in a deserted street.

GOLGAPPE – ones that I was going to remember for all my life. Now to let all of you in on what GOLGAPPE are all about, let me show you a picture and the procedure on how they are served –

Pani Puri

These are served with a filling made from potatoes and peas and later filled with tangy tamarind or mango water. You then put the whole thing at one go inside your mouth and let it blast inside, leaving a heavenly taste on your tongue and on the cheek walls. Now, these are so thin, they tend to sog even with mild moisture in the air and that day, it was pouring. So to add some taste to them, he added hot fillings, off the stove. There were no potatoes, only peas and I’m yet to taste anything like that till date. Somehow he had added magic.

When we returned though, all I remember having was a rather unwelcome feeling of separation!

What I’d like to visit from that day again –

1. The GOLGAPPE.

2. The railway station.

3. That rain.

4. That school compound.

5. I’d like to know the marks I scored in my English test.

What I’d like to skip on my next visit –

NOTHING!

Lets see what others have for this prompt

  1. MY POISON IVY EFFECT [EMEM’S DIARY] | She Writes
  2. what if | the hilarious pessimist
  3. Toes like telltale crocuses | Butterfly Mind
  4. Insert End of an Era Cliché Here | AS I PLEASE
  5. A sight never forgotten… | ALIEN AURA’S BLOG: IT’LL BLOW YOUR MIND!
  6. Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time- Psychology Behind Being Present And Daily Life | Journeyman
  7. no regrets | think | architect
  8. The Match | The Jittery Goat
  9. Daily Prompt: If I could Turn Back Time | The WordPress C(h)ronicle
  10. Living in The Early 1900’s – WANGSGARD
  11. Daily Prompt : Turning back time | Love your dog
  12. Those Crawling Days – Undoubtedly The Best | Ambiguity and Fraternity
  13. A is for April: What’s New This Month | My Little Avalon
  14. Personal Atonement | In the Present
  15. May contain nuts | Kate Murray
  16. DP Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time | Sabethville
  17. Now | Perspectives on life, universe and everything
  18. Grey | Perspectives on life, universe and everything
  19. Daily Prompt – If I Could Turn Back Time | hometogo232
  20. Back To The Future For A Fresh Start | Awake & Dreaming
  21. My fleeting high school dream of being a genetic engineer. #DNA @wordpressdotcom @postaday | Frozen Spaghetti
  22. What if we can Travel Through Time. | Free Thinkers Mag.
  23. enter | yi-ching lin photography
  24. Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time | Basically Beyond Basic
  25. Don’t do it | The verbal hedge
  26. Looking Back | Works By Anastasia
  27. If Time Could Go Back, What Would I Do? | From Hiding to Blogging
  28. But All the Time Turners Broke… | thanks for letting me autograph your cat
  29. Endless Summer | Lisa’s Kansa Muse
  30. Daily Prompt: If I could Turn Back Time | Bob’s Blog-O-Rama
  31. Daily prompt 🙂 | myjourneyeveryday
  32. My First Bloggyversary! | Haiku By Ku
  33. Zin « Averil Dean
  34. Daily Prompt: If I could Turn Back Time | seikaiha’s blah-blah-blah
  35. Presente | Daily Post. – Missmosta
  36. For the Love of …. The NORTH BORNEO RAILWAYS | Duniya Ku
  37. If We Go Back | Flowers and Breezes
  38. Relive those moments… | FREE BIRD
  39. Daily Prompt: If I could Turn Back Time | | Shawn
  40. If I Could Turn Back Time | Dave Kester
  41. Turn Back, Stop at Fifty | Emotional Fitness
  42. The Best Moment Award: Living for the Now and for Mom’s Penguin Stories « psychologistmimi
  43. Revisiting myself | One Educator’s Life
  44. Corn | I’m a Writer, Yes I Am
  45. If I could turn back time | theoriesinthought
  46. I’d kick my own butt. | Thoughts Go Back
  47. Help Me Distribute Personal Care Items With Dignity
  48. Time Travel | Life Confusions
  49. Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time | Chronicles of an Anglo Swiss
  50. If I could turn back time | That Montreal Girl
  51. DP: Do Over | Scorched Ice
  52. Travel to the innocence | Life is great
  53. Would I have asked you to dance? | The Bohemian Rock Star’s “Untitled Project”
  54. First Love | wisskko’s blog
  55. DO NOT cash in that stock grandma gave you! | The Flavored Word
  56. Pure Land | Dreams to Reality !
  57. If I Had It To Do Over – Daily Prompt | Why is there bread in my Kool-Aid?
  58. Daily Prompt: If I could Turn Back Time, 01.04.14 | Markie’s Daily Blog
  59. It isn’t a good thing or a bad thing. It is just a thing. | Vampire Maman
  60. Harda – A Seed is Sown | Views Splash!
  61. Daily Prompt: Mother | Morrighan’s Muse
  62. but that was yesterday and yesterday’s gone | eastelmhurst.a.go.go
  63. If I Could Turn Back Time | treasurethememory
  64. Disrupting the Flow | djgarcia94
  65. Once upon a summer | mnemosynesandlethe
  66. Do “Do Overs” Exist? | Raising Our Redheads
  67. You can’t always go back. | SusannaAntihero
  68. Glazed in Gold | Call Me Incorrigible
  69. Flowing Backwards | Overcoming to Becoming
  70. That Time We Had to Smuggle Bacon Into the Country.. | Kosher Adobo
  71. If I Could Turn Back Time, from the Daily Prompt | janetcatland
  72. If I Could Turn Back Time: Daily Post | Destino
  73. If I Could Turn Back Time/DP Challenge | Starting Write Now
  74. DP: Turn Back Time – A Question of Moments by Ruswa Fatehpuri | aliabbasali
  75. If I Could Turn Back Time – ROBIN’S REAL LIFE
  76. Daily Prompt: Being able to Relive! | All Things Cute and Beautiful
  77. If I could, I wouldn’t . . . | Right The Writer
  78. If I could Turn Back Time… | ~Tiger lily~
  79. Of Days that Once Have Been (A Poem) | meanderedwanderings
  80. Daily Prompt: If I could Turn Back Time. | Ty
  81. It had lights! | Trucker Turning Write
  82. The Two-word Answer | My Author-itis
  83. Hindsight is 20/10 | litebeing chronicles
  84. Back To The Blanket | Edward Hotspur
  85. Letter to My Future Self | the intrinsickness
  86. If I Could Turn Back Time, If I Could Reminisce. | My Renaissance Blog
  87. Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time | F X T 8
  88. If I Could Turn Back Time | Late Bloomer Liz
  89. Wrong Answer | Speculative Paradigm Shifts
  90. If I could turn back time | A Guatemalan Affair
  91. Fleet | Seat | Retreat | fifty5words
  92. Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time with More Talking Animals | tnkerr-Writing Prompts and Practice
  93. Daily Prompt: Born to Be With You | Here I am !!
  94. Still Sand | a sweet bright thing
  95. Back in Time | itsmayurremember
  96. Unrequited | vic briggs
  97. If I Could Turn Back Time | Tonkadella’s Things in Life
  98. Daily Prompt: If I Could Turn Back Time | Nola Roots, Texas Heart
  99. If I Could Turn Back Time | Alexia Jones
  100. The Past Unrecovered | Sugar, Spice, and Everything euNice
  101. My Regrets Aren’t What I Thought They’d Be. | ktjjenkins
  102. Mental Time Travel | Psychology Muffins

Disturbed – Deify

I’m confused now. Just a couple of days ago, in a Thank You post, I let all of you know how much I loathe the practice of editing earlier published posts to serve the purpose of your current ones, and yet here I am trying hard to fight the urge to do it myself. I’m so tired, I can’t write anything but I want to as this is one my favorite topics.

But I won’t fall into the temptation to do it. I’ll tell you the song that I forgot to mention in my earlier post – Hue Of Silence. Actually there are so many that it’ll take months probably to list them all down and get the link to their past, the exact picture, that image of silence.

Imagine this. You are running on a treadmill. Your heartbeats are going at a rate of knots. So high that you form a lump in your throat, a lump of fatigue, an ache that spreads fast to your shoulders and then your head but you don’t give up. You run. As every drop of sweat makes it’s way down from your forehead, rolls from your cheek, chin and then to the treadmill floor, you run for every second of that 20 minutes that you designated for a run. And then imagine yourself listening to this –

Take my word… you will regain your energy and run 20 minutes more! It’s so heart pumping!

Lets see what other’s have for this daily prompt

  1. 1936 – Bentley Drophead | Crazy Markovich
  2. A beat is missing | Perspectives on life, universe and everything
  3. Tana deem, ta nana, na na, na na, tana deem (sparks) | Perspectives on life, universe and everything
  4. The Mirror: Tanka | 365 days of defiance
  5. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me -Psychologycal Side of Recalling Memories | Journeyman
  6. Craters of the Moon | Exploratorius
  7. Dr Martens! An update! | ALIEN AURA’S BlOG: IT’LL BLOW YOUR MIND!
  8. Daily Prompt: Past « Vicariously Poetic
  9. The past was once the future | The Ambitious Drifter
  10. The Idyllic Place & The Daily Prompt | The Jittery Goat
  11. November Rain | Knowledge Addiction
  12. A Barenaked Summer | Musings | WANGSGARD
  13. Music is all around us, all you have to do is listen. | A Voice for Science.
  14. DP Daily Prompt: Always something there to remind Me | Sabethville
  15. (Almost) A Song for Everything | Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | likereadingontrains
  16. That moment | Kate Murray
  17. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | Awl and Scribe
  18. IT TAKES ME BACK. | Dreams to Reality !
  19. Musical Memories – Boy’s of Summer | Unload and Unwind
  20. This is always my go to place when I’m in a mood. Which is often. | thoughtsofrkh
  21. The River of Life. | Whispered Words
  22. Always something there to remind me | Sue’s Trifles
  23. Cretan Folk Music and Ali’s fall! | ALIEN AURA’S BlOG: IT’LL BLOW YOUR MIND!
  24. Oscar Songs on my Female Mind: I’ve had the time of my life and Let it go « psychologistmimi
  25. I Won’t Give Up | Flowers and Breezes
  26. Don’t Panic – It’s Only Love | snapshotsofawanderingheart
  27. Daily Prompt: Songs and memories | seikaiha’s blah-blah-blah
  28. Still searching…! | juimkul
  29. Memories | A mom’s blog
  30. Always Something There To Remind Me | Trailer Trash Design | U.S.A.
  31. Daily Prompt: High Water Everywhere | tnkerr-Writing Prompts and Practice
  32. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | snippets and words
  33. classic blotto | eastelmhurst.a.go.go
  34. When People Randomly Break Into Song « Scraps, Drafts and Fragments
  35. We Weren’t Lovers, Just Brave Strangers (B. Seger) | meanderedwanderings
  36. A Dream Chaser, A Love “Echo” | From Hiding to Blogging
  37. Today sparrows | shame
  38. Valentine’s Challenge | Mila’s Misadventures
  39. Daily Prompt: Always Something There To Remind Me « Mama Bear Musings
  40. Back to the Mystic | the TEMENOS JOURNAL
  41. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | The Paperback Chronicles
  42. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | Of Glass & Paper
  43. Daily Prompt: Always something there to remind me | The River Mom
  44. Musical memories – Cassandra Wilson´s Time After Time | mamangerie
  45. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | Basically Beyond Basic
  46. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | Chronicles of an Anglo Swiss
  47. The ‘Super’ 70′s. That kind of music just soothes the soul. | A Wiser Fella Than Myself Once Said…
  48. Daily Prompt: Past | The Wandering Poet
  49. in you (the past lingers in the lyrics) | peacefulblessedstar
  50. Thank God For The Radio | Goodnight Hestia
  51. Playing The Role of Someone In Control | A Sober Head Full Of Confusion
  52. The Surfs of Yesteryear | Lisa’s Kansa Muse
  53. The Surfs of Yesteryear | Lisa’s Kansa Muse
  54. Kolejny, drugi post | Lepsze Katowice
  55. That song on the radio | THECHOCOLATEYDAYS
  56. Drops of Sorrow | Musings of a Soul Eclectic
  57. DP: THAT SONG! | Scorched Ice
  58. “Always something there to remind me” | Relax
  59. Remembering You… | Life Confusions
  60. Daily Prompt: Past – Glimpse of the 60′s | Different Isn’t Wrong, It’s Just Different
  61. Daily Prompt: Songs « My journey to qualify for the Boston Marathon…and everything in between…
  62. Life Will Be As It Should….(wp daily prompt) | Daily Observations
  63. Song of India | I’m a Writer, Yes I Am
  64. You’re my An, an, an angel | JED’s Playhouse
  65. My musical memory set list (Volume one) | The Bohemian Rock Star’s “Untitled Project”
  66. San Jacinto | My Days In A Song
  67. Mulligan Stew | The Zombies Ate My Brains
  68. This Used To Be My Playground… | Steve Says…
  69. Torturing the Underclassmen (Daily Prompt) | Thinking Diagonally
  70. Daily Prompt: Tonight Is The Night…And I’m Feeling Alright | Morrighan’s Muse
  71. That Reminds Me of a Song | My Author-itis
  72. Daily Prompt: Always Something There to Remind Me | Diary of Dennis
  73. Always Something There to Remind Me – The First Lady in Red | Cancer Isn’t Pink
  74. Heading Back from the House in New Orleans | Touching the Mirage
  75. Bridge Over Troubled Water | Mindful Digressions
  76. “Always Something There to Remind Me” | Quando Porci Volare
  77. Daily Prompt: Being Reminded! | All Things Cute and Beautiful

It Ain’t Pretty

Sewn Up Heart
Sewn Up Heart

I’ll simply dedicate two simple songs for this tainted love post. Nothing much to write as those pages of my life are better left unvisited.

I’ve fallen “for love” than “in love”. And once you’ve fallen for love there’s no getting up till the bang of the end hits your face like a slap from reality. Reality then lets you hang from your hair in it’s hands and keeps kicking your gut till you finally make sense of the scene and stop crying. That pain is what builds you character, defines your learnings and tells you to stay firm when some pretty and believable silhouette approaches you from that one open door that lights your dark world. It’s so easy to fall into a trap, really. You may think I’m giving you some doze from a painfully depressing masochistic movie but it’s true.

You have to fall for love to know it. It’s when you are most desperate. And when love does arrive, it also brings with it a whole lot of false trust, strength and belief. You will give in to that love once you’ve fallen for that trap. You won’t know you’re being made a fool of but it’ll happen and soon, you debase your own reality, give up on your friends for that one silhouette of hope and love.

My advice – hold your pants and never let your prick fall out for anything but reality.

Here are the two songs though. The first is the reason you fall for love –

The next one is only because it gives simple enough reasons for a man to say why he’s a man –

Here’s what others are writing about broken hearts

  1. Naturally abstract | Perspectives on life, universe and everything
  2. Tainted Love | Knowledge Addiction
  3. Song of the fallen | Perspectives on life, universe and everything
  4. The Letter That Killed Me | Daily Prompt: Never | likereadingontrains
  5. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love-Psychology behind breaking up | Journeyman
  6. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | The Road Less Travelled By
  7. A Meal With Millie (short fiction) and The Daily Prompt | The Jittery Goat
  8. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | alienorajt
  9. Keeping The Music That Counts – Release | My Days In A Song
  10. Tainted love | dandelionsinwind
  11. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | tnkerr-Writing Prompts and Practice
  12. One Crazy Mom » Tainted Love
  13. DP Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | Sabethville
  14. Stood up at an airport | sixty, single and surviving
  15. DP: Tainted | Scorched Ice
  16. Tearful kisses – Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | Chojin Bain – Wondering thoughts of a Dreamer
  17. Tainted Love | Maria For Real
  18. Silent fear.. | Tale of Two Tomatoes
  19. Tainted Love: The Breakups | Living Dead Girl
  20. Dating in a Small City: Falling For the First Time — Again! | Kosher Adobo
  21. #85 – Daily Prompt | shatteringlove
  22. Secrets and lies | A picture is worth 1000 words
  23. Love is in the Air? | Anecdotes | WANGSGARD.COM
  24. Why I Blog | The Zombies Ate My Brains
  25. A six letter nightmare. | Aicela Aitacil
  26. It’s Over. It’s NOT me. It’s you | I’m a Writer, Yes I Am
  27. this is how I release (you) | 365 days of defiance
  28. The 3 A’s of BROKENNESS: ABUSE, ABANDONMENT, AND ADULTERY | The Christian Gazette
  29. Incarceration | La Gatita Oscura
  30. The Worst Breakup Story
  31. I dreamed you up from flames | Color me in Cyanide and Cherry
  32. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | Basically Beyond Basic
  33. RELEASE | Lisa’s Kansa Muse
  34. Don’t let them see | anonim0us
  35. How I Got Dumped On Valentines Day! | The Political and Social Chaos Blog
  36. MY LOVE WAS NEVER TAINTED | SERENDIPITY
  37. ThINkINg ………………..
  38. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | Chronicles of an Anglo Swiss
  39. Tainted Love | the bippity boppity beautiful blog
  40. Dreams within Dreams: Daily Prompt | Finicky Philly
  41. Daily Prompt: Tainted Love | Lady K’s Lounge
  42. Trapped by Anxiety | Broken Light: A Photography Collective

Superheroes

Superheroes

You know what’s so special about superheroes and common man? A superhero wants to pretend as a common man while a common man wants to pretend as a superhero. The difference is between the need, the want and their aspirations. They are a case of dichotomy!

One is a superhero and needs to show himself as a man to gel better while the other is a common man but wants to be a superhero to look different.

We grew up watching and reading superheroes. As the childish innate desire grows to emulate them – their heroics, their generosity and their responsibility, the child grows too. Like all desires have their ceilings, this too has only two ways to go with age – either to get killed in the whirlwind demands of the world or come out, turn us into real superheroes of the world.

Some people choose roles that make them humans while others decide differently. While the former dissolve in the sea of normalcy, the others become the insoluble particles always visible. When we see them, we talk about them and decide whether they be acted upon. Whether they be left there untouched or be filtered out. We decide what to make out of them.

In this world where the different is what’s noticed, the value of the act in the eye of the observers decides if doers are really our superheroes. Since each act is scrutinized for we are too judgemental, we sometimes forget that in the end, they are humans too.

While this designation of superheroes may or may not necessary be happening at a worldly scale, it may be happening in our small little lives. This designation may or may not be happening at the doers expense too. It may have already happened in our subconscious without us even knowing about it.

But since most of us need a figure to look up to, we first choose them from among each other. Most often, they are dads, moms, grandmas, grandpas or a simple caretaker even. But they all exist and sometimes we fail to analyze and see these mere mortal men and women as humans. Vulnerable to the world and prone to mistakes themselves.

I pointed this out, because for some reason humanity is the last practical virtue we learn in our lives. By then we have already placed it below so many other crappy values that it becomes hard to find in the face of some simple human needs and desires.

While you may run in this world scathe free, your superheroes always have to watch out for their reputation in your eyes for your heart just can’t be broken. For this, some may even sacrifice their secret desires, their aspirations for the latter part of their lives when they have seen their children grow up, get married. The question for them will always remain – what do you need?

While the others may just break a few hearts and return to being humans and fulfil their own aspirations from their lives for their part in their small world is complete. They make their point clear to their world and tell them – we got to do what we got to do. The question for them is – am I done with my responsibility?

Both the sides live in this world harmoniously and yet when they do show their faces, both of them are right! Which side are you on?

What is Fear?

The clear answer should be – fear can be defined as the state of mind in which brain doesn’t allow the body or heart to perform certain tasks because of its intolerance to certain known consequences.

Correct me if I’m wrong people.

The next question I get in mind is – how do I use fear? If it’s so associated to our mind, there must be a way to use this state of mind for some profitable results. For me fear has a solitary result – the drive to get over it. I can proudly say it too – after a time during which I can analyze my fear, I almost inevitably get over it ‘coz I have then given my mind to analyze all the possible actions to counteract it and all the possible consequences. I think it would happen to most people.

But what if some people can’t get over a fear? Some dreadful images or situation just takes some people back to that moment when all that see is their fear. Would it then need some psychiatric help or can self-control help them?

We (me and my wife) went through something that has changed the dynamic of our relationship forever and at least I now know in my mind and heart that I will not be able to tolerate some particular situations because my mind would never know how to react to those situations? Is this fear or only anxiety taking over my mind and deluding it from seeing the obvious truth? Has it happened to anyone else out there?